Ego vs Control

So lately I've been living with the frustration of not quite understanding why guys don't like "their woman" to have an accumulation of male friends.

I mean really? Is this not a sign of insecurity to a large extent?
Is it because he knows that if he were to be surrounded with a multitude of females, he wouldn't be able to hold himself and thus thinks that I won’t be able to control myself?

He went on to say, it’s not worried about the amount of temptation I'm exposed to but he just understands how guys think and their intensions.
Thoughts that rampage and turn my brain into a runway leave me wondering if this is a matter of securing the safety of his heart or just another way to exercise control as a man?

I understand the level of discomfort a guy can find himself in if his girl is busy entertaining millions of other guys and not giving him the time of day. But he can’t force me to give up all my friendships and concentrate on him and him alone. My mom always said if he is worth it, your long list of guy friends will eventually die down.

Anyway, I guess what remains, is that his ego got in the way of what could've been a fruitful relationship, according to me. Or maybe it was a good thing on my side, maybe I dodged a bullet....
I guess we'll never know...

How It Broke

Young love scripted through texts unspoken

Lived through words and lost in devotion

Feelings amass but yet left unwoven

An accumulation of frustrations, trapped deep down and dispersed with no action

Sacred and true, malicious and yet so new

The fear crept in where no solid steps where taken

A bold young man struck continuously by distress, failure to understand the masculine mistress

For him, a man in a woman was one fold

Anything else threatened his manhood

A young lady threaded to completion, inner strength reined above all imperfections

What continues to boggle her mind, a deeper question of Dissatisfaction.

Why couldn't he just celebrate the beauty of a woman who took charge?

Confused by the transparency and honesty, modest and insecure bullshit steered him into a state of panic

The love ship stagnant, leaving without even trying.

He fled with his fear of a heart that would remain broken.

#D-No

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The name is Dianne Normans... My mothers most precious gift... she named her Divine cause she knew she'd live her live expressing what God liked about himself so much that he created this being.

You can never take away from me what God has instilled... My name is Dianne because I was once what is know as a Roman goddess cause I embrace Kingship from all aspects of my existence.

I am Divine...

BRAIN LAG

Lately I find myself rather in a serious lack of what we may call a challenge... It really is unheard of. I mean, the only reason why I actually wanted to start working was so I could allow my brain to turn itself into what God had inteded for it to be, but lately I find it difficult to be the thinker that I have always been... I can hardly draft a note that makes sense... I find myself using a thesaurus so often... WOW... I've never imagined it to be this bad... I NEED A CHALLENGE!!!

I suppose its time to move with the times and get myself a new challenge... even if it means pushing two jobs at the same time... I can do it, I don't mind doing it... All I know is that I am in dire need of some brain feed...

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You got to love Lwazi's dress sense... I swear its so simple but it gets you real good... If I was a guy, I'd wanna be dressed up like Lwazi all the time, pity he doesn't wanna dress me up like a young dudette